dont smile. pout!

declutter

2010-05-17T17:30:00.003+08:00

sorry for locking the blog for a few days. needed a bit of privacy and that's why i m transferring the blog to wordpress. lol. have been 'loyal' to blogspot for 5 years now (omgosh!) but wordpress is able to give me a lil bit of the privacy i needed with all the password-protected posts and what not.

and so, while i m at that, this time, lets keep it simple :)

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moving at the speed of light

2010-04-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

chin nam : you know, i think rudy and i are the same kind of people.
me : how so?
chin nam : we are adventurous
me : how so? (half expecting some great stories)
chin nam : we go malacca!

lol. you dont get it nevermind.

today is a good good day :) cooked a meal again! awesomesauce pasta.

he told me today that his greatest dream is to go up to space and see earth in a bird's eye view. i rolled my eyes and ask him to 'just imagine one small blue ball in front of you la!' but the truth is, after awhile i think if i were up there looking down like that, i think it is gonna be so awesomely beautiful, my heart would be so overwhelmed and just burst. why burst? because my heart really cannot handle too much lol. ask me to do the leap of faith, it ll burst! too overwhelmed also burst!

haih. okay study :(

dont be discouraged

2010-03-31T23:18:00.000+08:00

have not been in the best of mood lately. full with rage in the blood one day and all down and just so bothered by all things for the rest of the week :( anyway, mid valley's fruity gelato - mixed berry yoghurt gelato is THE chicken soup for the soul. share it with someone, its taste better that way :)

you give me butterflies

2010-03-25T15:26:00.000+08:00

hardly had a half day off during a school day and i foresee a wasted evening because i am now down with flu and fever :( chin nam got me an actifast panadol and i have to say unless you want to see ur gf choked by that HUGEEE tablet, do not get it. haha. its okay, still sayang.

exams are in 2 weeks time (TWO!) and am feeling drown in all these uncertain business. seriously, convomag drives me to no end, and mind you i am not exactly in the committee. studying is not fun at all because everything's so messed up :( and i have to worry bout looking good for ball and also chin nam (cut ur hair pls pls - dragon ball hair is uh-uh not nice). this semester not nice one. at least sem 4 got us busy for a proper reason.

anyway, i found the secret to yummy pasta :) its all about the cheese :) but you need fried garlic and meat too! and the secret to all yummy food is FRESH INGREDIENTS! fresh fish with just salt, pepper and garlic is all yummy! carrots are my favourite now because they just have the natural sweetness to it! sometimes when i cook, i think i wanna be a better homemaker than a dentist.

okay. gonna do my work now :( and its not studying :(

new week

2010-03-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

studying this semester around is just so difficult :( dont know whether its there here-and-there syllabus, or its just me! have been really unsettling, the whole studying thing. have no direction at all. exams are really really near. and i have this huge problem of not directing my study schedule. and without any proper direction, i cant do anything :( need to pick up and find my mojo soon!

lesson learnt

2010-03-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

today i gave chin nam an inferior alveolar nerve block. not nervous, but for the whole treatment thing today, i was so scared to cause him pain, or even the slightest discomfort.

dr. muneer was right. the hardest patient are those who are closest to you.

and yes, must keep in mind, anaesthesia blocks out pain temporarily, not forever :)

what is wisdom tooth for?

2010-03-05T17:27:00.026+08:00

today, chin nam became my patient :) and i loved it because helping someone you know is so much different from treating strangers :) and he was my most interesting patient i have so far (nevermind the total count that is THREE!) haha. 2 lower impacted 3rd molars and both upper 3rd molars are in the sinus, making it a contraindication for extraction, and he has an odontoma which is a non-neoplastic malformation. haha. and also a couple of surface caries. but all in all, i m really really glad because he got to understand his condition better, and i felt really good about it. he said i was an angel sent by god to help to know these things :) it was something really nice to hear!

pictures taken off with permission, of course.

strawberry avalanche

2010-03-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

second day of march. have been cooking for almost 2 months since semester 5 started :) i would say, given the proper fresh ingredients, i am able to dish out edible food, though not so fantastic. haha but i do enjoy the process of cooking. makes me feel like a natural woman. haha. right now i m boiling soup for soup noodles later for dinner :) with 3 big prawn heads in it, hopefully giving flavour :) but yup, acquired some skills this year. haha.

besides that, have been trying to go to the gym more actively. my parents have been really awesome, paying for my gym membership although i probably would need to go off 3 months later. but if i were them, i ll do the same for my child! spending time together as a family in the gym, being fit and more health conscious. and though i have gained some weight over the year, i have no plans to go on a huge diet to return to a 46kg, but really just want to exercise a bit and feel good about it :)

this month will need a change. as in, i will need to go back to the study mood. chin nam has been a really hardworking person, studying for EOS5 and have been consistent at it. really makes me proud :) i have absolutely no doubt that he ll be a fantastic doctor :) anyway, back to studying, yesterday i took the liberty to list down the topics that will be covered in our exams, and though not as much compared to EOS4, i really do need to step it up, considering how relaxed i have been since day 1 of sem5.

clinics have been okay so far. had 2 patients in total and did one composite filling each. and for the first one, i had trouble with the shade guide, and choosing colours. and the second one was okay-okay, though i wish i was taught the proper way to choose the suitable shade. sometimes, honestly i do feel a lil unprepared for certain stuff. i do understand that we have to independent and learn and acquire skills by ourselves, but we really do need some guide in this stage. and i dont know whether the lecturers are super perfectionists or i am just inadequate, but i really need to make some mistakes to learn. and for those who are really patient and taught me a lot of stuff, i am so so grateful! someday when and if i ever become an academician, they will be my inspiration to be helpful and friendly towards students.

this sem with its less packed timetable, allows me to really just be with friends and know them better, and also allows me to really take time and see our lecturers and surroundings. one thing for sure, i ll miss malaysia for many many reasons once i ll go to partner school :)

♥ floral prints right now ♥

♥ and this, is yummmy :) :) ♥

lucky just to linger in your light

2010-02-28T21:49:00.001+08:00

you make me smile like the sun
fall out of bed, sing like bird
dizzy in my head, spin like a record
crazy on a sunday night
you make me dance like a fool
forget how to breathe
shine like gold, buzz like a bee
just the thought of you can drive me wild

smile - uncle kracker :) :) :)

according to him

2010-02-26T20:54:00.000+08:00

i' m beautiful, incredible, he cant get me out of his head
according to him, i' m funny, irresistable
everything he ever wanted.

so baby tell what i got to lose,
he's into me for everything i'm not.

according to you - orianthi

your skin

2010-02-25T23:50:00.001+08:00

i have the best parents in the world, best boyfriend anyone could ever hope for, crazy but yet adorable good friends to go to to laugh and cry with, a good institution for me to study, a seemingly good path for the future, a great life with no major setbacks, if everything's been planned by the greater person up there, then i have been very very lucky. i am thankful but somehow i dont know how to be. and if there's anything to work on myself, its to be grateful. each and every single minute.

nowadays i find solace in the simplest thing in life. like listening to love songs every morning before school. or even just laughing. recently i have this realisation that i love touching his face a lot a lot. and his arms too. rough from eczema and allergy, but i m used to that texture that if i were to touch any other skin, it ll feel so different!

and also, i dont know but the parental unit has been very erm, different. maybe the sudden realisation that i am gonna be 21 this year, probably leaving KL this june, and that my dentistry studies is gonna end just as quick as how the year 2008 and 2009 passed by. it is actually really fast. time, irreversible. but i ll never chose to have it reversible. every now and then, never fail to tell chin nam that we only have 3 more months here in KL. and how the future is so unknown. but, yeah, for now i rely on his strength and faith in us. need some time for me to really stay strong also.

yesterday was teasing him with all the things he'll missed when i m gone. but truthfully, its all the things I AM gonna miss without him. if i could have one wish right now, its for strength for both of us to face all possibilities thrown in our way. and for myself to not always worry so much. paranoia is no good sometimes!

not so soon but soon

2010-02-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

having a massive headache right now. but still having a lot of thoughts about transferring to partner school soon. thinking about the things that i m gonna miss. imu feels like home to me and friends are like my family here. having to adapt to a new environment intimidates me. being far apart from chin nam worries me. and not having my second family with me scares me to no end. i think i ll miss chin nam's jaga-ing me the most! anyway being here makes me feel loved :) who would ever thought of leaving :(

rainbow veins

2010-02-21T22:06:00.001+08:00

currently craving for shaved red bean ice with lots and lots and cashew nuts on top :) just for a nice closure to this wonderful break from school. for the past one week i ve had a lot a lot of thoughts, like why people who resort to suicide by jumping off buildings, or cliffs, or bridges have the guts to do so, when they themselves assumingly think they have no courage left to live. its ironic. taking a leap of faith, or simply to surrender to gravity is a crazy thing to do. and then one fine day, i thought of all the chinese astrology people and their 'those born in the year of snake is most compatible to....' talkings, and when mom and dad started telling us what kind of people we should ideally end up with in our lives. how do we exactly control whom we are attracted to?

anyway, just to let you all know, my favourite cny cookies are the melt-in-the-mouth kind of pinepple tarts! haha. have been really really happy happy these few months. maybe cos school is not that stressful (yet) and everything is just going really well. thankful and really just happpppy :)

you by the light, is the greatest find

2010-02-13T18:01:00.001+08:00

kara diogardi and jason reeves - terrified

started the week with an impromptu pre-valentine's dinner at a thai fine dining restaurant, even though i really wanted to go to this pasta place which i shall return there again one day. and do you know why i love that pasta place SO much? because each table has their own mini-jar of cheese! and i absolutely love my cheese in my pasta. can add, add, add and add. totally no self-conrol but oh my, mad love! the valentine's day premier was lovely and its true, one dose of the movie is good enough to melt a thousand cold hearts. on thursday 2am was another unexpected out of the world surprise. and in the afternoon, one huge rat ran across my foot :( :( but totally compensated by a bouquet of flowers that night. and how not to forget my first stressful filling done in a patient! bbq was awesome and would die for another piece of bbq chicken drumlet again :) :) and now that the week is over, weeeee, happy holidays! cny cookies only comes one a year, so haha i m not gonna care about waistline and whatnots!

foiled

2010-02-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

i think somehow the thought of leaving soon is gradually sinking in, now that people are getting ready, buying books they want to bring over, getting equipments, discussing about lodging etc. its just all too soon. january passed me by just as swiftly as the sea breeze, and now that its almost mid-feb, gosh! i dont know if i ll get otago. but i ve just realised something. i ve got to stop occupying my thoughts with me, me, me all the time. leaving, as hard as it is on me, it is much harder for him actually. lol. he's gonna put up a strong front and deny, but yeah, not just loved ones, its actually as hard for the family too. they just didnt tell you. haha.

i swallow the beams and sundrops

2010-02-06T15:02:00.001+08:00

mom made the most awesomest pumpkin + bacon soup for lunch! it was really really really good and flavourful, can really have it every single day :) hehe anyway back to home again today. had a really good good time yesterday with friends in SoHo KL but tiring haha ♥

anyway, my second patient this week was an epileptic patient. and i think i really just got blank for awhile and didn’t take the seizure history ie the type of seizure, the cause, frequency and trigger etc etc. but also don’t know how to ask these kind of questions. anyway, one good thing from seeing real patients is that we can really go back and review each case because they are so individualised!

epilepsy denotes a group of chronic conditions whose major manifestation is the occurrence of epileptic seizures but not all seizures imply epilepsy. there are 2 classification of epilepsy seizures : partial and generalized. a serious complication of epilepsy is status epilapticus, where there are repeated seizures over a short time without a recovery period. signs of impending convulsions on the dental chair include an aura experienced by the patient, irritability and “epileptic cry”. a seizure comes with dilated pupils, muscle rigidity, loss of consciousness and ceasation of breathing.

this patient takes Tegretol which is the trade name for carbamazepine as he/she is allergic to Dilantin (Phenytoin). its dental consequences include xerostomia and microbial infection; it gives a higher tendency to bleeding and we should avoid giving erythromycin when dispensing antiobiotics as it would lead to toxic levels of carbamazepine. it is taken twice per week and functions to elevate the seizure threshold. compliance is very important in the control of seizures and am happy also because this patient really takes care of his/her health and knows how to spell out all his/her medications, and is compliant. poorly controlled epilepsy may require additional anticonvulsant.

haha all this are after post-clinic reading. but all should be snap-snap in my head all the time, gosh. long way to go, keili!

oh before i forget, i won the valentine's day movie premier tickets :) :) :)

ain't a walk in the park

2010-01-28T21:16:00.000+08:00

"anything that's worth having is sure enough worth fighting for."

fight for this love - cheryl cole

january's coming to an end pretty pretty soon :) and sem5 is indeed a totally different one. had my first patient today, yes yes and it was just a great start to a whole new learning experience! the mind was so fully occupied on the thought of having a patient, chin nam noticed too! but anyway, it wasnt that bad as i expected. and seeing and treating one is really totally different from reading the books. like, seeing really stubborn stains disappearing after scaling was like magic to us! okay, not that we didnt know or we're stupid, but just seeing things with your own eyes, under your own care, is all totally different!!

and in one way or another, i am really thankful to have got this patient because it taught me so so much. having a hepatitis B patient got us really careful, but at the same time, really just treat the case as per normal. haha i told mom just now, and she was all in a worried tone, but yea, cross infection and everything just makes us all more careful, also serves as a reminder to always ask patients. saw a lot of stuff too, but also still learning from each other :)

i dont know but this month just went by pretty fast! like i still havent settled on the thought of having to transfer to partner school, still thinking whether i have made a 100% right decision to put this uni into my first choice, havent really prepared my mind for this whole dentistry thing that is hopefully gonna carry us far into life, the thought of leaving, the thought of embracing LDR, being competent enough and many many more la. really too much thought but duno where to start, and i still have school work to do :( :(

just need a cheesecake to cheer me up right now :)

the heart is so full

2010-01-24T12:06:00.000+08:00

it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

corinthians 13:7

ohana ♥

2010-01-19T16:27:00.004+08:00

dad's 57th birthday 2 weeks ago. he's 40 to me all the time. so i dont usually bother bout his age haha. but yup, capturing moments with his new DSLR (again! envy envy.) with self timer.

posting this up because i dont want to keep seeing the valentine's day thingy haha. well, last week i complained too early about being too free cos right now, i m overwhelmed with work! but certain stuff are quite exciting, looking forward!

My Valentine's Day

2010-01-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

Warner Bros. Entertainment Company is now giving away 80 pairs of Valentine’s Day Premiere tickets for a 3 day advance premiere to Nuffnangers. So here I am now trying my luck and besides, its pretty fun! instructions here. so, yes, i need to pick one of the stars in this movie and talk about how i ll be spending the day with him. *excited* no harm dreaming!

If i were to pick one of the stars in the movie Valentine's Day to spend the day with, it will be... ERIC DANE! Mr. Mcsteamy! yes i prefer him over McDreamy (Patrick Dempsey) because gosh, Eric Dane is totally magnetic! Excuse his bed-hopping behaviour in Grey's Anatomy, and have a good look at his scruffy good-looking face and you ll get a better idea of what i mean! hee. and yes, suave and totally smooth, with a lil bit of a bad-boy attitude. who wouldnt want to spend Valentine's with him!

i m totally uncreative with exciting dates, but i know mcsteamy here loves riding the motorbike (i googled!)! so first agenda will be to go to the Harley-Davidson Kuala Lumpur Lifestyle Gallery in KLCC and erm, bring out the biker chick in me. (haha, i really doubt so) but yes, and then, we could adjourn for a ride along the coastal road or any highway, make him wear a leather biker jacket, riding 80mph with the wind in our hair. gosh, it will be completely awesome cos i havent really sat on a super-motorbike before! and what more, to have Eric Dane with me! probably take a lot of photos, so that i can gloat for the rest of my life haha.

You would think i m thinking romantic, but no, haha mr Mcsteamy here has a missus (Rebecca Gayheart) and she's due this year! So, being very considerate here, I would bring him to Planete Enfants, an up-scale baby store to shop for pink goodies (they are expecting a girl!) and also probably persuade him to name the baby girl 'keili'! ah! i m genius! haha, anyway, yup, after baby accessories, and pink socks and frocks, we ll have a simple sushi dinner. no particular reason, just that the above 2 agendas are for him, so it ll be fair to have my pick when it comes to dinner!

so yup. simple Valentine's with Eric Dane! nuffnang, please give me a pair of tickets. chin nam can drool over taylor swift for all i care haha, but yup, please? thanks!

fear mediocrity

2010-01-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish there's like a 'guidebook to being a woman' for me to read and know, how to be the right woman. the do's and dont's. to do what a woman should do.

anyway, have been reading thingsweforget.blogspot.com, so inspiring! makes me want to be a better person. week 1 is over, but i gotta tell you, its making me feel still so lost. weird huh, too busy i complain, too free i whine about having no direction.gah.

confession : i think i ve becoming mean. if not, meaner.

contentment

2010-01-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

Beth Cooper : Thank you... for loving me.
Denis Cooverman : What's not to love? You remember that.

first week of 3rd year. not that busy but yup, lab sometimes can bring a whole new level of stress. but i guess being in dentistry, nothing is ever non-stressful. and oh, this weeks' access cavity prep for endodontics is pretty cool! haha but i like putting the file into the root canal and just feeling the hollow space that once was having a pulp! but yes feeling still so small, like i dont know much in dentistry. dentistry taught me so so much, i d love to really just write it all down someday and share it with people. but for now, carpe diem, i m just gonna seize the day and really have fun during the last semester here in IMU and anticipate a hopefully better semester in partner schools. chin nam's having his GP posting right now, whenever he calls and says he has got time to see me, gosh its like gold to me. 3rd year is gonna change everything for us. right now, its all about appreciating.

a thousand splendid suns

2010-01-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates. have been extremely busy with schoolwork. yes, on a holiday, when my semester only starts next week! woe is me! took years to finally finish the tumours of the oral region assignment which i severely editted because it was almost 40 pages long. but alas, managed 37 pages. so many tumours! rough count = 50 tumours. so dont ask us again why dentistry takes 5 years! i m now on the presentation that sab and i will be presenting! blinked multiple times when i received that email and saw my name. gah! now i m supposed to understand what i wrote :(

work aside! this week has been generally a great week for us. and by us, i mean, mummy, daddy, bros and chin nam and i! 1st, daddy is all healthy! and his birthday is tmoro! and both mummy-daddy's business is doing well. no need for sleepless night for mommy! and kei jin passed all his foundation papers to do his architecture degree and kei sheng entered bestari for his secondary schooling and all is well for him! and as for chin nam, he welcomed a fluffy, good dog into his family and i finally managed to let go of my fear of dogs! but maybe because he was just really a good good boy.

speaking of doggie, gosh, he is SO adorable! just sayang him with all my heart because he is so cute and a really really good boy. was visiting him once and he sat beside me and then suddenly plop his fluffy little head on my feet and stare into me with his brown puppy eyes ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ and this whole week, chin nam has been feeding me with dog infos, so now i m enriched with doggy knowledge! so anyway haha i miss him a lot and always ask about him whenever i m not around. the dog i mean. hehe chin nam says its okay to miss doggie more than him.

anyway, started the new year with a short hairdo. please dont see me and proceed to ask "eh cut your hair?" haha. cos i dont know what else to say then :)

vertigo

2009-12-30T23:54:00.001+08:00

update : went through this blog while doing the tumour assignment, check it out! its about a girl having odontogenic myxoma. and while you're at it, jun corresponded to this patient while we were doing our crouzon's presentation last last year, thought of sharing it with you guys.

sometimes i think the key to comfortable solid relationships is to have your partner as your best friend. today we met up and talked a lot. bout us and everything under the sun, but mainly on our attitude in our studies and career and also life. i do reflect a lot about my seriousness and passion, just because i dont really know whether i m approaching life correctly, and also because i know i m not perfect and there are tonnes to work on. we both have different motivations and cf camp struck me the most because i finally knew what my motivation is in everything i do. i work hard basically not to let people think i m weak and not capable. but i think for me, i just cannot settle being just average. dont we all wanna stand out a little?

"i wanna do something a lil more different than the others" - paige
"in everything i do, i wanna be better than the rest" - chin nam

gah. but still trying to figure out what i have that differs me from others. most of the time, i feel tiny. and when chin nam tries to perk me up, telling me i am gonna be successful, just dont know what he sees in me that i see in him everytime. some people you can just tell, they are gonna be someone, somebody, just dont feel like i m the kind of person who is gonna be like, totally awesome.

haha. maybe all this roots from dentistry! haha, i vividly remember that night when i was 15 on the double bunk bed, with the moonlight shining through the windows, decided that i gonna settle with just being a teacher and nothing else, average life, nothing significant. i remembered it because i was alsmost certain i m gonna be average. and how times have changed, i am 20, almost half a dentist, young with long journey ahead, trying to be outstanding and having more thoughts in this big head.

one of the first few things that comes to mind when i try to describe myself, is that i m a dental student. dont know, but your profession does define you doesnt it? maybe thats why i m thinking too much, because this whole dental thing is a HUGE part of me, i need to do it right.

anyway, had a good time today cos i can just totally be myself! ♥ singing to bad romance in really off keys for the whole 5minutes, and chin nam automatically repeat the song for me cos he knew i was enjoying myself hehe ♥ and "good girls go bad" cos i can be leighton and he can be the guy and we can sing our own part and make "good" funky music haha. and that good guy has been listening to me quizzing bout everything under the sun, such patience is all ♥ i ll miss this day where we went to 3 shopping malls just to watch sherlock holmes and how we got frustrated and together-gether scold every small lil thing that was one our way and had beef kebab and oreo mcflurry with berries AND how we still managed to buy my stuff although the pharmacy is half closed :) one day we will sit alfresco with drinks and talk whole night again ♥

and yes although i dont drink, we will pay the library a visit, just for you to see bespectacled librarian-y waitresses and to "fulfil your bookworm fantasies" HAHAHA.

here comes the sunshine

2009-12-27T10:24:00.000+08:00

was in singapore for 3 days. not that fantastic cos everything was so expensive and honestly, they dont offer much also. but anyhow had a great trip with the family :) hadnt been there since 2001 hahaha so yeah. walked tonnes there as in many of our family trips and their mrt is so like hong kong's! nostalgia! seriously if malaysia railway system can be this organised and efficient, malaysia would be so on par.

#1 airport meal. greek tossed salad - with feta cheese, olives, croutons, mixed leaves, red onions and vinagrette. i can eat this foreverr! had this with mommy at o'brien's before leaving. loveeee looove looove the cheese and everything ♥

#2 absolute yumyums. first meal in singapore :) hainanese chicken rice, super smooth and the chili definitely has a superkick to it, omg please eat this with chili or else dont eat! somewhere at bugis ♥ we stayed somewhere in bencoolen street and the bugis station is within walking distance so yup pretty easy to go around

#3 went to national museum of singapore. really nice architecture to the building. loved it there cos though with white walls and pillars and everything, its yet so modern. they have this hightech commentary thingy which is really cool cos you just have to press the numbers and you ll get your commentary ♥

#4 love all the quirky things there ♥

#5 haha told ya it has got a modern twist to it ♥

#6 this room is soo soo pretty. they basically put herbs and stuff into these jars and you can sniff a few of them by pulling rings attached to them ♥ the photography living gallery has some really interesting family potraits and stories behind them. i read one on this caucasian woman who met a singaporean in london and their relationship and how people used to spit at them cos interacial relationships werent that welcomed yet. and there was this potrait depicting polygamy heheh but i had not time to watched the video clip.

#7 by night time we walked to clarke quay (going there by foot is a pain haha) this place is so romantic omg! haha when we were there last time, i was around 12 and definitely do not know much about romantic-ness so was so loving this area and the riverside view. we were sitting there for a good one hour just appreciating everything ♥

#8 ...and had ice cream by the riverside heheh. $3.80 for one scoop. had green tea & red bean + black sesame :) both super nice ♥ please franchise here, please.

#9 random breakfast. hehe but its pretty good. getting breakfast in bugis was kinda a problem for us because most open at 10am (?) i dont know but prob cos its a public holiday also (christmas!) ♥

#10 went to sentosa, which isnt that fun anymore :( they are contructing the casino and the universal studios there until the whole thing not nice anymore :( but hehe we went for the luge and sky ride which is pretty fun ♥

#11 mommy and daddy on the sky ride ♥

#12 some beach in sentosa ♥

#13 went cycling hehe ♥

#14 spent our 3rd day in the national science center which is all fun fun fun :) loved body worlds and the imax theatre thing was kinda fun too, seriously. imagine yourself watching a documentary with a dome-shaped screen, quite an experience ♥

yup. thats all. pretty short. didnt go to the jurong bird park or safari or whatever cos wasnt really our thing. legs tired like crap cos we walked walked and walked hehe but its pretty fun :) next weeek, gonna cut my hair, if possible watch sherlock holmes!!! and also complete that freaking annoying assignment :( started like one paragraph HAHA. oh, also buy heels :)

enjoy the holidays ♥

vienna

2009-12-22T22:39:00.001+08:00

:) taking result slips has become somewhat less anxious for me already, its all the numbing effect man haha. anyway, yup got the results! 3rd year it is! was going through the details of the result slips and oh gosh, chin nam will super super gloat but yup, thanks to his OSCE crash course, got an A ♥ from knowing absolutely nothing ♥ ♥ medical science paper was a grade higher than dental practice but yup i really did enjoy studying med science much more than dental [do not throw stones at me] so there you go, no more insane 2nd year. dont know what to expect from 3rd year, but i have a feeling its not gonna be THAT relaxing man, still have quite a bit to polish up when it comes to seeing patients & treating them. and the whole transferring to partner schools, sounds interesting but i m *kinda* afraid of it, honestly. its so much more than just going abroad.

but yeah, was just thinking i really cannot survive without friends and everything. cried less this year [over academics] haha but i tell you, just sharing your feelings with good friends can do wonders, we all practically go through the same thing, so thankful for wonderful wonderful friends. and also google and wikipedia ♥ helped so much in learning, and also for google images ♥ and the super nice songs ♥ they practically helped me go through each day. i remembered after finishing med science's first paper, i went home and listen to lady gaga's bad romance till i m truly satisfied. and lonely late nights were accompanied by voices of john denver and owl city, gosh how do i survive without them. and also chin nam being my 24-hour complain-and-whine hotline ♥

watched avatar this afternoon :) absolutely love all the plants there haha esp the 'putu piring' one where it spins and spins and spins, SO beautiful. and with neytiri the little cili padi fiesty character, i also love! love love! hehe anyway will be going on a short family trip to singapore for christmas :)

strawberries

2009-12-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

Jenny Curran: Why are you so good to me?

Forrest Gump: You're my girl!

"Forrest Gump" is the story of a man who rose above his challenges, and who proved that determination, courage, and love are more important than ability." love the movie so so much! love the small hint of smart comedy and everything! go watch it!

came back home today :) dropped by one utama for a quick shopping fix. gosh, i loveeee cotton on. super reasonably priced and their skirts are lovely! love love love. the rubi flats too are also very nice :) good for labs hehe. its sort of in front of MPH so do go there!

#1 took this this evening because it looked like family brunch.

yao char kwai, soya bean and porridge ♥

#2 Oedipus the King - ♥ it very much!

princess aurora

2009-12-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

watched my super ultimate disney princess movie ever again today! i dont know bout you girls but the sleeping beauty is my favourite ♥ maybe thats why i love enchanted too! super classic fairy tale story and if love is as simple as just falling into it, how nice! anyway, this film reminds me SO SO much of my childhood because i used to LOVEEE it and marvel whenever the fairy godmothers [flora, fauna and merryweather - lol even their names are so cute!] spin their little wands and make a cake and this beautiful off-shoulder princess dress ♥ ♥ gosh. love it! haha. gotta love the holidays for just allowing me to just laze around and do whatever i want! hehe. ooh watched pretty woman too :)

"shield of faith and a sword of righteousness"

- flora from sleeping beauty

sleep like a bulldozer

2009-12-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

#1 while studying for the exams ♥

#2 raisins = energy boost ♥

#3 what chin nam gave me after the imu christmas celebration ♥

#4 my dungeon for the past 2 months ♥

#5 bored while studying ♥

#6 eggs and tomatoes with dash of pepper ♥

#7 lunch with chin nam ♥ ignore the fatty siew yoke. i did took out the fatty part!

#8 dinner on friday night ♥

#9 vietnamese beef noodle with sabby and the rest today ♥

"i like you just the way you are" - mark darcy in bridget jones' diary

yes i have been watching movies and movies and moveis day in and day out. love rewatching those :) princess diaries and all :) gotta love em holidays!

drama call

2009-12-11T21:06:00.001+08:00

today i called 999 for the first time ever in my life!

was heading to mid valley with chin nam after watching pearl harbour on the laptop, and on the way we saw this small person lying face down at the side of the road. and it was so so surreal and scary at the same time! he was seriously not moving and his motorcycle was almost on top of him and i think his schoolbag (?) or something was really on his head! and nobody was there with him. we were passing by super quick and were wondering to each other 'wth wth did you see what i just saw?' the first thing that came to my mind was 'omg he is dead!' because he really was just lying down there. maybe from too much pearl harbour bomb-bomb scenes or whatever, but i really thought he was dead :( then both of us were panicking half way and we couldnt stop anywhere cos the road was so narrow. then chin nam was like 'omg he need an ambulance, call the ambulance!!' and i didnt know what to do but to do as he said, really wasnt thinking at all. but really fortunately, 999 is like really convenient and the operator really did a good job getting all the information, especially when i couldnt say much.

the first thing i said was 'IS THIS THE AMBULANCE!? IS THIS THE AMBULANCE?!' haha really doesnt make sense because 999 is not just for the ambulance right? but yea was a bit panicky until dont know what to say, was like motorcyclist! on the road! nobody there! unconscious! haih, but really scary la ok, after calling we were like 'whoa' and chin nam even talked about being there monitoring and probably doing the first aid or at least help, but yeah really no place to stop also :( really hope the person is okay. because if he somehow fell and knocked on the road and became unconscious, i think its pretty serious.

but yea this mental picture of a person lying down there with absolutely no one there to jaga is pretty sad. i mean, its almost like seeing a dead cat on the road and nobody bothers. but yea really need to be careful on the road :( and seriously also really think that our bodies are really fragile, like falling down can make you unconscious, bullets can leave you dead (okay this one influenced from pearl harbour) or how bones can be broken so easily. gah. i dont like morbid stuff (esp things like in 2012), we are really sometimes so defenseless, so always be careful.

on another note, am i the only one who thinks (500) days of summer is totally so overrated?

♥

2009-12-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

this movie makes me smile smile smile and it was awesomeee! hehe sam and flint :) the whole ponytail + spectacles thing ♥ heehe you'll understand if you ve watched it. (500) days of summer is next! btw, exams are over :) :) :) hehe. really freee. though dont think i did as well as i wanted to, but nvm :) i have time for everything right now ♥ oh have been watching ANTM cycle 13 too.

Collins Curve Toothbrush

2009-12-06T15:27:00.001+08:00

okay this is really not an appropriate time to blog because the 1294871km exam marathon starts tmoro but i read something interesting today in the books and hence the need to share! here is a special needs toothbrush that i have never heard before. and in this book i m reading now, it is recommended that patients with Parkinsons to use this because "their muscle rigidity makes repetitive muscle movement and maintenance of good oral hygiene difficult". it looks really efficient and good job for those kind souls for considering people with special needs too.

credits : Collins Curve Toothbrush
Dental Management of the Medically Compromised Patient by James W. White (7th Edition)

all the best to DT108 ♥ we can do this

milo

2009-12-04T01:36:00.000+08:00

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay.

boys like girls feat. taylor swift - two is better than one

my memory hard disk is near its threshold, seriously. and the mind and the eyes (!!) really is begging for some rest, but my heart is just full of pure gratefulness. 1.34 am. planning to stay up late. but i know what keeps me going. and its all that i need.

drenched in vanilla twilight

2009-12-02T13:47:00.001+08:00

#1 cupcake by faye ♥

#2 home ♥

#3 best room in the world ♥

#4 siew yoke char siew - best accidental find in sri petaling ♥

#5 best instant noodle in the world ♥

#6 pleasant surprise (the 2nd this week!) by darling paige ♥

#7 minibro's 7As celebratory dinner ♥

#8 daddy with the christmas tree ♥

#9 after dinner family talk at the cosiest place in the house ♥

#9 chin nam's surprise invasion into my room ♥

#10 minibro and our constant 10 minute photography competition ♥

#11 how true

I’m a Sherlock Holmes in the Making

2009-11-30T18:03:00.003+08:00

nuffnang, i d love to have a pair of tickets! :)

anyway, here's the trailer. looks promising! robert downey jr (from the oh-so-yeng iron man!) and also jude law. i m definitely gonna catch this movie this coming christmas! and i used to read sherlock holmes when i was little ok, and the current form 1 actually have a sherlock holmes story for their english literature. smart and witty, unlike james bond, wee i like :)

it is this that counts

2009-11-29T23:34:00.001+08:00

today i came back to vista, room cleaned and dust-free (no more ha-chi ha-chi!) with yummy study companions (crips, toblerone dark chocolate my super fave and packts of raisins) left on the table for me.

THANK YOU ♥

had such good family time this long weekend, cant wait to finish all this and return home!

little finds

2009-11-28T11:58:00.001+08:00

stumbled upon this site which i think is pretty useful. go check it out. and on the blogroll section, there are some dental student patho links. havent really read through them, but should be quite interesting!

http://www.pathologystudent.com/

do the anemia quiz! hehe kinda fun. and you get to learn stuff also.

xxxxxxxxxxxx

"The platelets are surely astonishing little "creatures", with a very hot temper."

http://www.platelets.se/

belts

2009-11-27T01:24:00.002+08:00

this is getting tougher and tougher everyday. every brand new day just seem more tiring than the day before and i am constantly exhausted. really, true mental strength is what you really need to do dentistry. all i wanna have now is that sheer pure half-an-hour bliss in that new shop in the shopping mall, with the girl attending to me shoving dresses and pretty dresses on me. seriously, throw in a make-up artist and hairdresser and its really like a makeover. it was PURE fun! it was just one of those rare forget-about-the-notes moments i have this week, where i had the liberty to even spend 15 minutes deciding on which belt to get even though all three of them look strikingly similar. that place was my sweet escape and when i stepped out of that shop, i was back to reality. sucks big time. this whole day my mantra was : do this with an open heart do this with an open heart do not say hate just do it. but guess what, studying really sucks, especially when you have been doing this for the past 2 months already and its STILL not the end yet.

earfood :

all fall down - one republic
true love's kiss - amy adams and james marsden (i ve been humming this song like crazy i think chin nam also fed up whenever i suddenly suddenly break into this song. anyway, this is a happy song ♥ )
fireflies - owl city
vanilla twilight - owl city

nobody but you

2009-11-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

this is one the of pics that i super love in my pic folder. kei sheng in 2005, with this 'harry potter' specs that my parents liked on him, that big elephant ears and big smile. 4 years passed and he is like my bodyguard now next to me. and then suddenly the baby has facebook! haha was tagging his pics and saw this. is it possible to miss home even if i have only left 8 hours ago?

sun rays

2009-11-22T14:41:00.000+08:00

i wanna have a bubble gun and blow happy rainbow-coloured bubbles and pop them with my little finger and see you laugh and lie down on a huge flower bed and daydream in the blue skies and eat ice cream till my tummy bursts :( hehe, by the way, being at home totally rocks! beats being in vista a freaking million times. home is really where the ♥ is. but the whether is really really cold, isnt it? i ve been wearing socks for the past 3 days. hehe, makes me feel like a baby.

blowing bubbles in the open field

2009-11-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

so right now, i m at home after 2 weeks of being at vista and all the crazy intense studying. had a paper today and an exam 2 days ago. but it is not over yet. will be having the great finals on the 7th, 8th, 9th and 10th. and just yesterday, i was taking out all the notes for the 7 systems and was thinking, oh man, this is not gonna be easy! and in two weeks!! haha but nvm i m still grateful :) chin nam has been super-supportive, and constantly throwing bits and pieces of info into my already crammed memory space but then again, thank you! hehe. his exam is coming up next week, but thank goodness i dont have to worry too much about him. this whole week has been one of the hardest, sometimes just couldnt take it and i ll be like 'i surrender!!' yeah, not giving up, but sometimes i just surrender to whatever that comes my way and just do my best, even though i do not like the student that i have become today ["cram, cram, cram! no time, cram! dont understand? skip it! no time!"] hahaha. and when i say cram, its like 3 sytems in 10 days, ok? anyway, these past few nights have been so so so cold :( my feet is icy icy cold :( and i keep ha-chi! till my nose turns red :( :( cold! :( i need either hot chocolate or just super tight hugs! hehe but my super blanket is love!

out of grace, gratitude, hope and love

2009-11-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

picture credit : deviantArt

hope can be learned with practice. certain attitudes support it. one is patience, an ability to tolerate delays, a willingness to let events unfold in their own time. the other is courage, an attitude of confidence even when facing the unknown. the third is persistence, the determination to keep going no matter what happens.

♥

gray matter

2009-11-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

Christopher Reeve and his cervical spinal injury :

Reeve considered suicide. He mouthed to Dana, "maybe we should let me go." She tearfully replied, "I am only going to say this once: I will support whatever you want to do, because this is your life, and your decision. But I want you to know that I'll be with you for the long haul, no matter what. You're still you. And I love you." and Reeve never considered suicide as an option again.

Dana Reeve loved to ride horses. In 2005, she told Larry King: "I rode my whole life, and after Chris had his accident, I stopped riding, primarily because he loved it so much, and I think it really would have been painful for him if I was going off riding and he wasn't able to."

CNS is insane but heartwarming stories like this makes me :)

vanilla twilight

2009-11-11T00:05:00.001+08:00

picture credits : tumblr

because i m treating this blog as my personal space for expression, i need to let this out too. you know what i m struggling with the most right now? keeping lab matters and studies as two different affairs and not let either one affect my focus. its driving me crazy. ok keili, lab is lab, worry in the lab, scold, curse, stomp your feet in the lab but do not bring it to your room and affect your concentration when you study your notes. grrh. nowadays i m full of angst and frustration, and really, it has nothing to do with the exams. sometimes i do want to be mean, scold some people, tell them off, scream, shout and let the emotions all out so that i do not have to keep it in me. but i m a good girl :) gosh, being a good girl is tiring HAHHA. chin nam calms me down by stroking my back, telling me to not be angry and everything's gonna be okay. but inside, i really just want to run barefoot to his car, go to the backseat and curl up like a baby and sleep. its crazy but my only sweet escape now is the 'disco car'. it gives me a huge sense of security.

he told me to save my respect for the paramedics and the nurses, not doctors. not dentists. and that doctors are not greater than dentists too. but whatever it is, now whenever i see medical students, i just want to shake them out of their little minds and.. i dont know, just let them know. i think this whole miniseries of debate in my head is driving me nuts. after 2 years of dental studies, i ve only come to realise that i am really, still just so small.

hot air balloon

2009-11-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

i ll suffocate from this thought of mine if i dont blog about it today. you know how we dental students, i presume, take pride in choosing the right course, one that almost guarantee very good working life and despite being one of the most busy people here in imu, we still take pride in it. but seriously, if you think out of that little oral cavity, out of that 2mm x 1.5mm x 4mm cavity that we drill using our high speeds and think out of teeth and pulps and gingiva, we are really nothing compared to what the medical people are doing. like seriously, we get all fussed up with pulp and pulp and pulp, we save pulps, we dont want pulps to die but how about heart failure, cancer, renal failure, respiratory problems. how bout stuff that impact people more? we get all frustrated when the world dont recognise us, dont allow us to be part of the emergency team, we frown and demand for a reason, we think we are all qualified. but the truth is, we are nothing compared to medical doctors who are dealing with diseases. dental professionals are dealing with something so special and unique, but we are nothing great. the medical doctors are the real deal.and with this, i m getting all angry inside. who freaking cares about unsupported enamel when they are people who really really need HELP? we study the biological sciences of the body, but ultimately we dont save lives, doctors save lives, we save teeth.

and no, i m not saying this because i have an exam tmoro.

on another note, today's emergency preparedness lecture is awesome, i dont really care about the content, i m just glad i laughed today.

sun shines through the rain

2009-11-06T21:50:00.001+08:00

sixpence none the richer - kiss me, the carpenters - close to you, the bangles - eternal flame : songs played in the cafe. absolutely LOVE those small little places with yummy-to-the ear songs.

happy 17th ♥

the tide is high, but i m holding on - atomic kitten :)

instant mood lifter 11.1

2009-11-04T23:23:00.004+08:00

okay, i ve been meaning to share every single thing that are instant pick-me-ups to me, so here we go again :)michael buble omg :) he flirts with the camera okay. pay attention at 0.41. haha he did the same 'pretend shy shy and smile' in his 'everything' video too :) :) ahhhhh, omg my heart melts into a pool of goo. and the girl in the video i think is his actual girlfriend :( hahaha. OMG I WANT HIM.

haha. sorry chin nam. hee hee. anyway, one more paper down! was thinking, ah finally i can relax, until mom called and sort of reminded me that my next paper is next TUESDAY. oh man :(

旋律

2009-11-02T20:44:00.041+08:00

dr saad surprised us all debaters with gifts from dr hanan, dr. muneer and himself after lecture today :) love it so so much. it is now smack right in front of me to serve as a reminder. even the blue wrapper is sho nicee :) was thinking how blessed i am and how thankful i should really be, amidst stressful times, there are still SO many happy-fying stuff surrounding me. really, i already feel like i can fly in the skies without wings. yesterday was a short but super happy-fying, because carrefour had SO many free food and drinks sample, i basically went amok like a crazy pasar woman there. and chin nam was like standing there 'admiring' me with a smirk. haha. and a simple lucky draw can instantly pull my mood up like crazy. and chin nam and his 'songs with beats'. he calls his car the 'pimp car' cos the songs are crazy hahaha. and also dinner today, sharing SUPER embarassing stories of our lives that really made my stomach cramp. it was a good laugh. and happy stuff really really do not come with a price :)

"some things in this life cannot be make up for sale and it is health" - my debate closing speech. and i say happy moments cannot be bought too :)

just had a paper this morning. another one this wednesday. 2/10 of the marathon. i m in my full spirits, and absolutely determined not to let a single thing bring me down.

earfood : 旋律 - Rynn Lim [take a listen!]

♥

pressed but not crushed

2009-10-30T18:51:00.003+08:00

never really did despise the fact that i have to study so much for the exam, but today so :( really wanted to go to chin nam's friend's BBQ party :( :( :( but omg study has to be my top priority :( so i m having vege (lots of it), 2 minislices of pork, 3 minislices of chicken and egg for dinner, instead of chicken wings, chicken wings, chicken wings and BANANA CHOC cake :( more reason to dont like exams :( deprive me of good oily food. i dont like (really refraining from using the word hate) it when something's stopping me from enjoying myself :( really wanted to go back home too :( but oh mm gee semester 4 is crazy. okay, keili, just bear with it :(

these few days have been as if i m living to study, the heart is screaming for fun fun fun :) like going to nice places with chin nam for a proper dinner, WITHOUT rushing through the food and going home to study :( like watching a movie, and then another movie, and sleeping till the afternoon sun wakes me up. but anyway, really thank goodness for wonderful friends, chin nam and my understanding mommy (haha sometimes she really do sound worried for me). keeps me sane. today's csu was kinda funny haha, 3 girls sitting on a bed like a row of kindergarten children. haha and oh chin nam, having fun being different personalities haha. and in cf, it made me just wanna burst out laughing because chin nam always have uncoordinated claps HAHAH. like, normal ppl '1, 2 *clap*, 1, 2 *clap*, but he just swings his arms and claps with NO rhythm. hahaa.

"you're my princess."

"and you're my butler!"

"wooh! rawr!"

"er, not gerald butler, but the real butler butler!"

"..oh.."

HAHA.

ok, those of you who doesnt know. he likes gerald butler ok. phantom of the opera. king leonidas. THIS.IS.SPARTAAA. *kicks some person into the well* HAHA

♥ you

no retreat, no surender - 300

clouds filled with stars cover the skies

2009-10-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

you could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare,
either way i don't wanna wake up from you

through my window, i can see

2009-10-25T12:32:00.001+08:00

this whole week has been a REALLY long one. kickstarted the week with one of the six summatives for the month, and then 2 whole late nights to prepare for the debate and then, the debate day itself. how do one actually fit in 'study' into the whole schedule, and also not forgetting 'sleep'? :( but amidst everything, i kinda like this week. hehe. no doubt tiring, but i think i ve accomplished quite a bit this week. non-academic wise. i was telling chin nam that holding a mic really empowers me, i think it really does, and if he ever needs to give me anything, just buy me a mic! (hehe, i will then really be a jigglypuff!) i ve learnt so much from debating from sabrina really! how to structure powerful sentences and also to voice out. but then again, i will never want to be question answerer, because i think its super really tough. no preparation at all.

for the past 20 months that i ve been in IMU, i ve received emails and added by some on msn to enlighten potential/incoming dental students. and for each of them, i never forget to tell them how difficult it is. semester 4 is really the killer one so far, 6 summatives in a span of a month, and then 2 weeks of study breaks and then 4 days of EOS (finals). so basically, 10 papers in 2 months. i havent not started CNS despite being in the 4 week already :( i never liked CNS, but was looking at the timetable just now, i really have to change my attitude towards it and really manage it. i m not afraid of the exams, i dont mind studying at all, but all i really need it the right attitude to keep me going.

on a lighter note, come and listen to this song :) haha. makes me happy :) haha and oh, was telling chin nam that i know he really cannot fully understand what i m going through right now, but the least he can do is to always remind me to be happy. even a cup of guava juice can do the trick :)

when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile ♥

give me strength

2009-10-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

i want to say plenty of things, but i dont know if i can really express what i feel right now.

semester 4 is gradually eating me from the inside out.

instant mood lifter 10.2

2009-10-18T00:08:00.002+08:00

posted this dental check-up receipt on my study wall a week ago, not to remind me of the cost hehe but because i kinda did enjoy the dental chair experience. reminds me again of what i am doing, and will be doing later in the future. and the cheeky little fella had to scribble something on it! hehe nvm, it was good thursday after-school surprise :) :)

instant mood lifter 10.1

2009-10-17T11:37:00.006+08:00

14th October

thank you paige :)

it cheers up my room.

*teddy bear hugs*

"i can be your hero, baby."

2009-10-14T00:59:00.001+08:00

"eh baby, just now i watched a video. there's this boyfriend + girlfriend. then one day, she got blind. you know what the guy did?"
"errr, the guy donated his cornea?"
"YA WOH! so sad.... sigh sigh wuwu" *pretend sad sad + partially hinting*

was gonna ask will he do the same for me, just for the sake of teasing, and then,

"EH wait, he donated one or two?"
"err two?"
"SO STUPID! why the guy so stupid!"
*goes on and on about the stupid decision and the rationale of giving only ONE cornea -.-"

oh my goodness haha got me laughing for awhile. but cant he just pretend to sound a bit sacrificial for me? anyway everything is still busy busy, trying to continue staying consistent in the studies, the timetable is super packed and exam schedules are crazy, but still trying to keep optimistic, so dont worry (at least, this is what i say to myself everyday). have been listening to few staple ear food for the past few days and this is of one of them.

enrique iglesias - hero

my light in my deepest darkest hour ♥

2009-10-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

was at our new favourite pasta restaurant yesterday, and amidst the business going on around us, that tiny little round table was our (mine, at least) little sweet escape. just good yummy cheesy (inexpensive!) food and the amazing oldies that they were playing. minnie riperton - loving you. really made me wanna go "la la la la la" and sing along hehe. can't everyday be like our friday nights?

hehe. and just so you know, when you pretend to sound macho, you really do sound like elvis!

just hang in there ♥

2009-10-08T23:31:00.001+08:00

close your eye
dry your tears
coz when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here
from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
weary heart
you'll be safe here

you'll be safe here - rivermaya

lift me up when i cant reach

2009-10-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

was back at vista this weekend. to study as much as possible, but no place is really like home :( the comfort, the food, the people :( anyway, have been trying to really make full use of the weekend, hehe, studied but also with a bit of time spent on youtube [ANTM!] and random blog surfing. everyone should check out the nominees for the asia-pasific blog awards! love the taxi driver's journal and this cute blog here! truly hidden gems.

so tonight chin nam decided to bring me out for dinner :) hehe was looking forward to it for hours! because it was sort of like an 'end-of-weekend-studying' reward kinda thing for me :) sho nicee :) hee hee. and he taught me csu for one system, realised i really need to remember the entire sequence and the rationale of it by heart :( but he guided me very well, kinda enjoyed it. cos he never scold me when i show my 'huh! why must learn this!" face :)

anyway, going back to dinner. haih. so so nice! maybe because i have been eating crappy food lately. (i miss mommy's cooking haih no one cooks like mom) so we had this super super super super super super nice mango salad which is super nice, which i thought was served so kiamsiap-ly because i only saw 4 cubes of mangoes. but no, dig in further, and ta-dah! an entire treasure of exotic sweetness :) me love! hehe, i had the salted egg sotong which is no doubt the most atherogenic thing i have eaten in the past one week!

and chin nam had guinness stout pork ribs! haha. guinness is apparently his preferred alcohol of all time but i didnt like the taste :( then when i showed my disapproving face, he punched his fist into the air and mini-shouted "TO ARTHUR!" hahaha. then i said again, NOT NICE! and he gave me an even louder "TO ARTHUR!" haha. what is this! haha if you dont know what i am saying, please go here! haha super funny

you said no star was out of reach.

maybe i dont know that much.

but i know this much is true.

celine dion - because you loved me

one of those 'hug the world' moments

2009-10-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

today was a really really really eventful day, ups and downs all rolled into one. really, i m telling you. yesterday was a late nighter preparing for the dental dinner quiz (which i hope everyone had good fun, because i had fun just sourcing questions alone!) and this morning the three of us all had our own lab problems. was coming close to tears when mr thambi said 'impression didnt do well, keili. try again.". i was like omg, why now only tell me when i ve progressed to the surveying stage. but in the end, everything was okay again :) was so so thankful for everything.

chin nam said "i know you all 5 "little girls" cannot handle, so i came to help." hehe. but really, i think "the 5 little girls" really did so so well, with only help from the 2 men : arthur and chin nam, in making the whole preparation for the event. shifting heavy heavy heavy tables, worrying about everything, making sure everything went smoothly especially in a short short time etc. i think really can call ourselves "supergirls" lo! hehe.

chin nam with the PA system.

and thank you for your muscles :)

part of dentistry now :)

the girl with the most amazing heart.

i am so so glad the event went well. dont know why, but it was truly all our girls' effort, sayang them so much. really glad everything was MORE than everything we have planned. seeing the lecturer's children giving us special performance, so so adorable. and everything lah. goodness knows how much effort we have put in, and the occasional kelam-kabutness. hehe. LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!

take me away from the world so wild

2009-10-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

have been meaning to update this space, but this entire week has been slightly more stressful than i have ever been. if white tissues has to autoupdate, it will be about how rough my day is EVERY SINGLE DAY. actually i dont know, in the end i know everything is going to be okay, and that the last drop of optimism left me in me can get me through every challenges that all of us are facing. but than again, i cannot help but to break down a lil while before picking myself up again, and go 'ok now keili, enough, time to get back.'

failed competency test this week. bevelling. it was just something so small, but then again, if i can even make that kinda mistake, it is no longer something small anymore. in one hour i broke down twice, and its not because i was sad or anything, but the entire 'ordeal' was so... argh. hahaha. but seriously, failing did not bring me down ok. i kinda think its kinda empowering, what doesnt kill you, really makes you stronger. everyone should try failing once, haha. kidding, please dont throw stones at me.

cns is NOT fun, at all :( whoever thinks its fun should be thrown into the gallows and never see day light again. haih. all this studying thing, drives people crazy sometimes. just yesterday, i couldnt even stand hearing a laughter or anything cos i was too frustrated with the tiredness that whenever i hear a loud 'haha' i wanted to just scream profanities out loud :( cannot stand happy people. just cos my life is so morbid :(

haha. that was yesterday night. but then again i think i still have some sunshines in my pocket :) feel like hugging the world sometimes, if only i have longer arms. sometimes in whatever i do, really want to fill my heart with gladness and thankfulness. my msn says : to feel joy and be glad. these 2 months are gonna be difficult, but as i said again, perseverance is a strength. it is all in my head 24/7. persevere persevere persevere.

the sun is on my side and takes me for a ride.

i smile up to the sky, i know i ll be all right.

natasha beddingfield - pocketful of sunshine

fear is the heart of love

2009-09-26T20:25:00.001+08:00

st. paul's ruins, macau

holidays have been really good so far hehe :) lots of studying still needed to be done :( i think no matter how hard or how much i want to revise everything, i will not be able to catch up, seriously. everything is piling on as we go along. the central nervous system module start next week, daily 8am class again. and the exam marathon starts on the 20th next month till the mid of december. there is a lot to do :( but then again, no matter what, i still think everything's gonna be okay. i dont know how, but just permit me to blindly believe everything is gonna be okay, alright? :) chin nam has been very supportive, as always hehe. cant survive the whole of imu without him *stick stick

"i had a scaling and some fillings done and you know how much it cost me?"

and so he said to me, hehe, dont complain. yes i know, the hopefully not so distant future sounds good and better than now. just persevere :) perseverance is a strength.

"errr *pauses for awhile* so baby, next time all my scalings and fillings all free for me?

if there's no one beside you,

when your soul embarks,

then i ll follow you into the dark.

death cab for cutie - i will follow you into the dark

the bunny princess

2009-09-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

one of the things that still amazes me. tooth eruption is one process, but seeing the process in process is a whole new different thing.

being back home is really really good. my room :) though there are many many things to do, and i dont get to see the man-friend, family vacation is next week and i m hoping to make this holiday productive, with a balance of both work and fun. today, i slept the best sleep in 2 weeks and had 3 full meals at home :) oh and the secret to smooth, silky hair, wash your hair in cold water! :)

hush, now.

2009-09-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

where there was weakness, i found my strength,
all in the eyes of a boy.

let the rain come down and wash away my tears,
let it fill my soul and drown my fears,
let it shatter the walls for a new, new sun.

celine dion - a new day has come

chow chow

2009-09-15T23:03:00.007+08:00

pic of the day : the best lou shee fun ever *hugs claypot

not oily. no pork lard, thus no guilt after consumption. yummy yummy until endorphins all come out from whatever glands. my highlight of the day! haha no, actually the highlight of the day is falling asleep after body massage by the ever so sayang-able masseuse. haha. he must think i m really a pig. talking about HOTH (highlight of the day), last thursday we attended the premier screening, though the movie was good i must say the best best time that day was when we went to pets wonderland and saw a chow chow!! haha.

ok. back to pbl. gonnna pull an all-nighter today.

serendipity

2009-09-14T20:44:00.000+08:00

serendipity : small little unexpected discoveries

got back from camp yesterday. reached vista and was knocked out right away. the entire week has been non-stop hectic, but a small getaway reminded me again of my own self, refreshed my mind and really got me motivated. wuwu haha and i also got a really pretty good looking angel :) anyway, really had fun upthere at genting with some good friends. really miss the chilly weather. so so cold, haha the kind that keeps you awake. today being back to dentistry and i really felt i truly love what i am studying right now. super love drilling, even if the composite came off rough, still enjoy smoothening it, all i need is truly the right attitude of learning. keep my eyes and mind wide open.

"You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."

lucky!

2009-09-07T12:02:00.003+08:00

omg i cannot believe this! i won a pair of tickets each RM168 to the T-Music Festival Concert @ Bukit Jalil National Stadium this Saturday!! this time its By timothy tiah, CEO of nuffnang, thanks so so much! haha, i didnt participate through the link above, but i had to write on how would i spend a day with the artists coming, super lame comment i wrote but haha nvm now! anyway chin nam will be away for the weekend and i m actually not that interested to go for it initially (just joined for fun) so haha need to find people nowww wooot! have a few people in mind!

everything is really worth a try! you ll never know what will happen!

aMUSEd

2009-09-05T20:20:00.006+08:00

just a moment ago, all three of us were in our humble little red myvi, engine off, windows down, eating our sticks of ice cream with just the radio blasting songs by Muse. i was at the back seat, practically almost lying down, just an open roof would be perfect. it was one of those serene moments where you dont want it to end. mom just sent in a bowl of salad :) home is sweet home :) :)

dragonfly out in the sun

butterflies all out having fun

you know what i mean, don't you know?

- feeling good

you're too good to be true

- cant take my eyes off of you

you electrify my life

i'll never let you go

if you promise not to fade away

- starlight

i google your yahoo!

2009-09-04T22:27:00.005+08:00

just checked my email and guess what!? i got invited to the premier screening for Beyond a Reasonable Doubt! its next thursday! 2 tickets hahah guess who am i bringing! thanks nuffnang so much! all i had to do was to comment "i would frame myself for murder because/if......." on their site. haha. thought for half an hour because they wanted a creative one. and i didnt even told chin nam a few days later because i thought of giving him a surprise if i won, but i m used to telling him everything and i was super excited and i told him :/ even before i got invited hahhaa. super lame reason i wrote there but nevermind now cos out of hundreds of comments, i got chosen and i got invited :) :) first premier screening omg. excited. haha chin nam must be so proud of me, yes?! :) :)

anyway when my 20th birthday came, i silently hope the day would just go by without anyone noticing. told him i don’t deserve that day. he knew what I meant when I almost bawled over the phone. no self-worth, no confidence, no anything. tuesday came by and I was overwhelmed. it was crazy and was so so touched to the core when the day itself ended. I think someone somewhere was really trying to show me something that I didn’t grasp at first, and till this very moment I still feel that same amount of love. too much, i cannot contain it. this is an appreciation post – to everyone, for everything.

i have more pictures. but i am not gonna post them up. a sweet young lady gave me a mug that is very special and a beautiful beautiful card, too beautiful she didn’t dare to write on it. she wrote a simple message on a piece of paper instead, as if trying to keep the card as it is for me. touched. thank you Chin Nam’s sis! and sabrina, that dear friend. too much to describe in a sentence. thanks for scaling my teeth for free and not grossed out by my oral hygiene =/ and paige for that little something that identifies to me so much! i love it so so much. junny and su anne for the all-girls-must-have bottle! and lastly the greatest guy in the world for giving me so much more than I deserve. that little prayer spoke so much for you and i, i really didn’t need anything in the end. still, totally loving the lovely lovely red make-up bag! why you so smart, knew what I truly need ah.

and also also, my superfamily. Supermom, Superdad, Nottiebros. had a wonderful dinner at BumbuBali [yup, Chin Nam brought me to that place before] on Sunday and so so happy we had a good time shopping before that. hee hee. food was yummy. so worried that Minibro doesn’t like that place cos he so picky with food! but thank goodness the lamb and beef saved the day! And mummy, the health freak also didn’t complain. hehe. just so happy lah see everyone eat until say nice. cannot wait for raya holidays, spending annual vacation somewhere else. i try not to complain so much =P
and also also everyone who wished me. housemates so cute gave me ice cream =) and also to daniel Ang, that little heng dai of Chin Nam’s who cares for the both of us and also for his prayers. how can one not feel loved? that day showed me so so much and when i told chin nam how how happy I was and how i was so so grateful, he told me why I like that, as if I ve never had a birthday. But seriously, i am so so overwhelmed i think i can just carry this feeling around, float float in the air and not care about anything else :) like the red umbrella in the Nanny’s Diaries hehe
earfood : the fray - you found me
you tube my space, i google your yahoo!

and all the world is calm

2009-08-30T11:57:00.004+08:00

jon mclaughlin - so close
a song i really love to dance to :)

bubblegum pink lipstick

2009-08-29T21:04:00.003+08:00

this first week back in the 4th semester wasnt that miserable as i thought! despite the super hectic timetable (8 or 9 am till 6.30pm), everyday was kinda happy-happy, no-worries-but-only-smiles kind of day. found my place in the underground submarine in LG and back to the hecticness full of dentistry-ness. i think i ve mentioned it before, but i find drilling very very therapeutic! i can really just sit and not talk for the entire 3 hours and just focus on the particular tooth. everything's step-by-step. was also super nice to have him with me more often now. smells just the same.

subway moments with BBQ sauce drippping from your fingers, the pool place i called the 'blue cube', chocolate ice blended with lychee jelly [yummmmmms], stick with you, ribena special [ref : pic #2!], nasi lemak with nuts and anchovies, you dota-ing and me at home *sobs*, sweetbean taufufah!, hehe, moon-shaped face, black high heels, panadol + antihistamine + vitC combo in the morning.... its never dull with you.

earfood :
1. kellie pickler - best days of my life
2. joss stone - right to be wrong
3. muse - can't take my eyes off of you

sangria

2009-08-21T01:41:00.002+08:00

if i just lay here,

would you lie with me

and just forget the world?

chasing cars - snow patrol

this quote gave me this warmest, fuzziest feeling in the world. tonight the hormones kicked in again. i felt the works. funny how endocrine starts next week. right now, i m stucked in my final part of the report. taking a break. honestly, i do not think its worth spending money on some classes that i have learnt no solid (life) lessons from. perhaps, i have worked my fingers a bit. but seriously, no more another time. i finished the entire season of 'the little nyonya' just now. sometimes, between episodes, i just wanna scream 'i want a Chen Xi!'. but then again, to love someone unconditionally, with huge sacrifices to make on your part, i do not think i m up for it. dont they say, love is selfish? you love and be loved, but if you love, be loved and yet still let him go? haih. tangles of web.

boiled crysanthemum tea a couple of nights ago. love the slight bitter taste. never since then bought a can or a bottle of sugared tea. it tastes totally different. and when you boil it, there's a really strong, distinct sweet smell that can almost promise you sweet dreams. and just yesterday, a huge plate of cream carbonara with mushrooms and turkey ham made me a happy happy girl :) but then again, i do not think i ll like the place anymore. they took away my favourite solid wood table! no marks for cosyness. hmph. but that place brings back a lot of memories and nothing, is gonna deduct any points for that.

colour - playful

2009-08-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

disclaimer : this post is really not to offend anyone who has any sight disabilities, ok?

i dont mean to offend anyone.

once, i asked him, if you were to have a disability, to lose any of your senses, which will you rather lose? smell? hearing? speech? without any long deliberation, both of us agreed that we cannot live without our sight. i for one cannot live not seeing the world, not seeing the faces of the people we love. but yesterday i came to a realisation that, the most important reason is that i definitely cannot imagine living in black and white, or grey. i dont know. yesterday, after many many years of not painting, i took out my brand new poster colour and really just spend the whole afternoon mixing colours according to my mood and it was really a good time. i was practically like a kid, watching magic happening with my own hands. bright colours just make me happy, dont know why, but it does! was wishing i was more artistically talented hehe since i always fail in drawing, but there's no doubt i LOVE colouring. its really like playing dress up! next time when i have my own children, i will definily send them to extra art classes! gosh, i admire those who can really just pick up a pen and draw!

ear food :

when love takes over - david guetta featuring kelly rowland
kristina debarge - goodbye

now that reality sinks in, i dont want to go back to school.

the ugly truth

2009-08-14T18:12:00.003+08:00

let me just start of by saying there is absolutely no such thing as a perfect couple. those who claim they are better than others are either perfectly delusional or just need an extra large serving of humble pie. i am serious. remember "licence to wed"? sadie claims that her relationship with ben is completely fine because they have never had an argument. seeing that, reverand frank sent them to counselling to show them what exactly a REAL relationship is. my point is, if you think a relationship is all about being on cloud nine all the time, you are SO wrong. the arguments and quarrels are all part and parcel of it. everyone has to deal with it. no other choice, 'cos its part of the package you re getting into.

haha. ok before anything else, just to clarify hehe, this entire post doesn't indicate anything wrong with my own relationship ok? was just thinking hours ago, and suddenly i came to realise what 'putting an effort into a relationship' truly meant. you know how all the magazines keep emphasizing on 'trust' when it comes to relationship issues? on how it can make or break a relationship? though i dont deny how vital it is, i think no matter how much you work on it, trustwortiness doesnt come by effort. what really requires effort is patience and tolerance.

i am the kind of person who can turn a simple question or an answer into a screaming fit. and chin nam, the poor guy is unbelievingly patient. but then again, i think all men automatically learn to become patient when they have a girl, like how dads are born when they have their own babies. anyway, i digress. i am a terrible person. and in a fight, i want to win, i want to sort of scream until he gets the lesson and it takes a lot for me to back down. experts call this 'the boxer'. chin nam on the other hand is 'the diplomat'. haha. after a while of cranky phone conversation, he stops to take a breath and mutter 'you smell lovely today'. even though he cant see me!! sometimes just one sentence can make me melt into a pool of goo.

i am in this relationship long enough to know how arguements are, and how we deal with our problems despite me being incredibly difficult. the first time we ever had a disagreement was when we were in our 3rd or 4th month. it was about a tinsy winsy small little thing which i no longer remember but funnily enough, i was sort of glad when we had our first quarrel because i was actually looking forward to it. to me at that point, it was something good. hehe. but fast forward now, i am really trying to avoid all conflicts at all cost, because i know its unpleasant. and because when things get unpleasant, the one who is feeling more upset is not me, but him. but then again, as i ve told you, a simple answer or just one small action can cause this seemingly inactive volcano to erupt to its fullest.

anyway, let me tell you honestly, men can be really terrible at reading our minds! i mean, there are good examples where he can totally see my frowny face and know what exactly is bothering me. but then again, they really do not read our minds. haih. and the problem with girls (me, at least) is that sometimes i dont have the guts to tell him specifically my problems and keep playing the guessing game, dropping hints, hoping that his mind can magically work like a clockwork and figure everything out. and when everything fails, i ll just go "fine. you dont get it!" and the poor guy will go "then tell me!" and then i ll respond by saying "haih. its nothing!" and the drama ensues.

haha. ok. anyway, after a few manja manja voices and some verbal pampering and some stern but still carefully thought conversations, everything resolves. and then, we ll go back to ourselves, retire to sleep, not forgetting the 'i love you's and 'sweet dreams' and 'goodnight's. i think chin nam hates it, not the arguments, just the fact that i m SO difficult. in other words, i think he doesnt mind the quarrels, he really just wants to achieve peace quickly so that we can move on. and that is effort on my part. because he has no issues, just me. *sigh

disagreements do not bring any gain to either party, but yet we all still go through this (hehe, actually just once a month la ok! dont think until so serious ok. hehe) i dont know who actually embraces friction in their relationship, but i think everyone learns from it. happy couples fight. some people have screaming matches twice a week, some once a month, some might claim to only fight 2 times a year (wth! teach me!) or never fight at all (i say its bullcrap but i dont know. bickering is still considered a conflict ok.) hehe but i genuinely think it doesnt damage a relationship. its bitter to swallow but i think it is sort of a reminder to us. to always compromise and be a bit more tolerant, to remind the guy how sensitive a girl can get and also to remind the girl how great it is to have someone to have the remedy of all problems - patience.

anyway haha experts say couples who fight have better relationships compared to those who dont confront their conflicts ok! thats one consolation!

pics from wei chin's advanced birthday celebration :

#1 friends who came. at Dave's, one utama

#2 we had dinner prior that but we had cookies and cream milk shake :) yumms until can die! hehe, thats him with a cannula and a spatula in his pocket. adorable, but not until he turns to mervyn and jokes "hey dude, i did an ECG on a hot girl today!" -.-"

#3 carls jr fish burger :) :) :) i want to have this everyday!! anyway, to those who wonder, carls jr is not fast food to us! its healthy *denial

had really good night out yesterday, a break from staying at home. wish i could smuggle the pool table and the mister back home though!

quote of the day : you are my 46kg of sildenafil
[wth wth wth wth hahaha thats his pick up line]

don't speak

2009-08-10T17:40:00.004+08:00

i know just what you're saying.

no doubt

i am pleasantly surprised as to how i survive this dreaded holidays. but the thing is, i think 'survive' is really not the word of choice, cos i m really enjoying the holidays in a weird, good way. the past one week has been filled with OT [operation theatre] stories - one should listen to the gory one about a neurosurgeon taking out a blood clot in the brain of a stroke patient. taking out a piece of the scalp? o-m-g. this week has been about a lot of patience too. haha. in a small small way. like when i no longer expect an instant text reply when chin nam is busy in UMMC. that is achievement for me. haha. my Richter scale is that high when i m super demanding. and i would rather for him to be busy with his stuff than free because in the end of the day, i know i have plenty of bed time stories.

anyway, i m so gonna rave about this new game on facebook which i m totally into. its Sorority Life! reasons why i love it so so much - i can choose to be either a socialite, a diva or a heiress and for once, i am a 'socialite', though in the virtual world. and i get to play dress up with my character [christian dior tunic, manolo blahnik sandals]! you can get to buy your own car [a honda prius, cadillac escalade or even a private yatch]! and the best thing is, you can b*tchfight with other girls, steal their money, earn some confidence point and make them terminally depressed. (my favourite part) hehe. seriously! its like living the life of Paris Hilton - organising events, have this oufit and that pair of shoes, earn money by socialising etc. the only downpart is that you cant choose your own hot boyfriend hehe, because they dont provide you men. HAHA. but anyway, it is simply addictive. and also maybe its not the kind of life i m leading, but secretly hoping to be a part of it. so girls, if you have time, do join this thing. it is SO exciting, i promise you!

the next big thing i m gonna talk non-stop about is The Biggest Loser, like seriously! chin nam doesnt get what is so appealing about seeing 16 obese people losing weight, but the thing is, you get so naturally bonded to each contestant that without you even knowing it, soon you re rooting for EVERYONE! its almost like this motivational show and you are a part of it, seeing how much pounds they have lost each week. their transformations are super dramatic, and i can assure you that some workouts that they have done cannot be achieved by yours truly because i m so unfit. and the trainers are really good. i like jillian! but i think bob harper looks like the masculine version of david beckham, with the scruffy good looks and tattoos. oh so yummy! haha.

anyway enough of all this random junk hehe. i think male singers sing better love songs than the XX species, dont you think so? and i think i have no more creative juice! have a lot of things to make but i cannot think of anything, oh dear. bro have been sick recently with fever and mild sore throat and runny nose. the entire clan at home is taking prevention measures just in case. you know, i think the mass media has impacted our minds a lot. never would have stayed away from mini bro even if he has the usual flu. but now we re taking care of the baby of the house now hehe. speaking about the media, mix fm has been annoying me A LOT. whats with the whole 'daily departed' thing about reuniting people. i think its overly dramatic. answer 3 questions and you ll spend 2 weeks together, if you get one wrong, you ll spend only 1 hour. i find it simply annoying! esp when they keep recapping the whole questionaire every 15 mins on radio! every 15 minutes omg every 2 songs and i ll hear sobs and cries.

new pet peeve : people driving annoyingly slow on the road

hehe. no la, i just think its the time of the month. oh dear.

ooh and i just know what i want for my birthday : an entire box of TIM TAMS. CHOC VANILLA please?

i won't be there to break your sweet heart,

but not being there might break your sweet heart.

you are my joy - reindeer section

miles above the ground

2009-08-08T23:56:00.002+08:00

nothing brings me down,

when you're around.

it's like zero gravity.
david archuleta

miss you guys so much in uni!

i ll update when i get myself around :)
promise.
have quite a bit to say.
yes, this is totally a filler post.

little red skirt

2009-08-03T20:32:00.001+08:00

new month with a slight new adventure :) but still cant help being eager to continue with sem4, to move on with my life because things right now seem a lil like a detour, a deviation from the main route. but despite that, i think i have a pretty good holiday. spent a lot of time at home compared to the past 6 months. and also plenty of "me" time! hehe.

i enjoy : eating a whole carl's jr burger all by myself [yum yumm wuaaamy yum!] - yes, its a challenge for me, the entire season 6 of the biggest loser [i can totally dedicate a post on this show becuase i love it so so much!], eating like i ve never cared at all! - salmon head with a lil of its omega 3 fatty acids mixed with rice, and crabs with fish roe all over [nevermind the cholesterol!], driving on the highway at 5-6 pm with the sunset right in front of you -makes one feel like you re driving into the sunset, phone calls, shopping with chin nam because he makes you doubt your decision but in the end still support your choices hahaha, seeing him park his car using only one hand steering the wheel! hmm and also when he surprises me in the middle of the shopping mall. love the bright red skirt that was so pricey, i almost succumb to begging him to buy it for me (which i didnt of course!) anyway, bright red skirt and bright yellow skirt are super super nice!

i will get a haircut soon! having a love-hate relationship with it right now. mom introduced me to 'the little nyonya' just now. hehe.

boyzone - better

i'm sweet like

2009-07-29T18:04:00.001+08:00

haha. i sewed for the first time since KH in form 3 yesterday. shorten a skirt that was in this annoying length. sewing is super eye-straining ok. esp when you try to put the string across the needle eye. anyway, today i drove my grandma's helper to the dentist for some serious treatment for what i initially thought was just simple periodontitis. halitosis + pus + loose teeth = periodontitis right? turned out she actually had a serious infection and had an odontogenic cyst below her gums and we were so lucky because the doctor on duty there (it is a joint venture kinda dental clinic) was a surgeon so he actually incised the cyst. have not learnt much about dent pathology yet so was so super curious there, and also kinda dumb cos he was asking me question that i dont know the answer to. anyway, super bloody and the cyst, if i were to describe the gross appearance, its like the fatty part of siew yoke =( pale and opaque, like animal fat =( anyway, learnt a bit hehe and i m really looking forward to oral pathology next sem! and also probably learn more from prof khoo!

electives starting this saturday. haha sharon (the coordinator) will be teaching me craft with more emphasis on clay modelling because you ll learn motor skills. 3 different clays - angel, eraser and salt dough which involves slight baking haha. i dont know. but sounds kinda fun when i went to her last saturday. might possibly make some earrings out of clay too.

funny how a song can just remind me of him out of nowhere! fly.fm was blasting in the car when flo.rida's "sugar" came on. haha. he called me one night and greeted me with that song instead of the usual 'hello, baby'. haha. totally made my day! but anyway, i HIGHLY recommend you all to listen to the song AND read the lyrics at the same time. hahhaa. so funnny! "girl, you my sugar, i call you.. Candy!"

double dee double da

sugar - flo rida featuring wynter gordon

angel clay

2009-07-25T21:33:00.001+08:00

contentment in the form of an ice cream :) :) :)

today, i learnt how to cook 2 dishes. hahha. its something ok! i remembered how chin nam was joking with his sheepish smile that i should really attend cooking classes as my electives cos i really need them. played badminton today again. felt really good. and then, we went to the drive-thru to get 'em cone sundaes! :) :) i love ice creams! ice creams they cheer you up like no other wuwu. was really stressed in the midst of exam preparation last semester and one evening, chin nam brought me to mcD's to have some ice cream. they are my instant mood lifters! beegees - how deep is your love. playing in the dad's car. never felt so much for oldies till now. chin nam listens to them and i used to tease him cos he sends me old love songs haha. but yeah, classics are always classics. bonnie raitt - let's give them something to talk about. how about love? haha anyway, i think i m seriously a bit possesive nowadays.

happy and free

2009-07-24T23:13:00.001+08:00

wednesday. spent a whole day or two with the superbestfriendakasoulmateakathebull haha. had been a while since i ve seen him! now i m suffering from withdrawal syndrome ever since i came back home :( anyway, watched public enemies in the afternoon at mid valley. haha barely had anyone in the cinema. and it was SO SO cold :(

after a late lunch. we drove to putrajaya with the help of google earth haha. it was really really adventurous! love roadtrips like that and i d never want to go on one without him because he is really really a good navigator! heheh. we actually wanted to go to the wetlands but we just couldnt find it! mom said it closed down already so hmm. anyway, we went to the botanical gardens.

no entrance fee is charged. and the place s there is super super super huge! we rented bikes for rm4 for 2 hours. super super excited when we got our bikes. it was really really fun fun fun! we cycled and stopped and cycled till we sweated buckets! :)

he took this haha. i was really impatient then cos i wanted to go on cycling.

we were dying for 100+. haha vending machines so totally saved our lives. and it was icy cold. yummy yummy yummy.

drove around to see around the place. haha. ok la might sound boring to some ppl but it was really really fun!

had dinner near his home. was really really tired. haha massage was good :) watched 17 again on his laptop. zac efron in aviator shades and leather jacket. haha. we slept in till next morning and had lunch at ss2. hehe so yeah.

anyway, chin nam went to malacca [again] hehe with his friends today :( kinda sad i wasnt there with him. haha he ate for me though :) many many chicken rice balls. one more month till sem4 starts. kinda anticipate it for many many reasons :) anyway, i m really enjoying the holidays. spending a lot a lot of time with the family. cant see him most of the time because we re in different part of KL but its okay i guess. hehe.

if you wonder, about the spell i m under.
it's your love - faith hill and tim mcgraw

hello there,

2009-07-24T01:06:00.003+08:00

...the angel from my nightmare :

you re already the voice inside my head

blink182 - i miss you

here's a little heart for you

2009-07-20T21:41:00.007+08:00

#1 yummy steamed rice + carrots + cucumbers + pork slices + prawns + black pepper.

#2 yesterday, after brunch - the brothers were singing off key in the front seats

this one whole week i ve been looking forward to so many things. after being let down and brought up again, this time i m now at the dumps [again!]. sine curve still moving along the axis. when can it truly stop? i cant stand this anymore. having your hopes crushed again and again. this time i really want to be cold, with no feelings whatsoever.

underneath the moon, underneath the stars

here’s a little heart for you.

if i should fall away, what am i to do?

give a little love, gimme just enough

so that i can hang on tight.

lenka - dont let me fall

* feeling so so SO much better now. cotton-candy-land phase. omg. my mood switches like crazy nowadays.

hand-squeezed orange juice

2009-07-19T23:12:00.002+08:00

the extremes of emotions. the happy 'i feel like flying' kind and the 'i just really want to shut myself from the entire world' kind. funny how i experience both in just 24 hours. anger is one powerful emotion, it takes control of your mind and it makes you ready to hate. it blocks out your rationale. i dont like feeling pitiful. and i dont like being sad. i think i ve cried too much for this week, for many different reasons. and for each occasion, after many many hours, many many comforting words, virtual hugs even, i turned to be cheery again. all together, you can just call it a sine curve. up down up down. it drains your soul. even though you end up being happy, the roller coaster ride alone strips you of your mood.

yesterday, i went to bed, determined not to feel anything again. brought with me a piece of tissue just in case the lacrimal ducts requires a lil more time to cease functioning. i ended up with taking two more. and fell asleep after a long phone conversation.

anyway, haha. i m at the top of the sine curve now. you know what brings you from the negative value back up to the positive mark? lots and lots of white tissues, a pillow, plenty of comforting smses from friends, mcd's ice cream, long sleeping hours, plenty of 'i love you's, elliot yamin, 2 brothers singing roxanne [by the police] in the car, a 2 hour badminton session and a lot of 'i love you's again.

do you know that there's this special kind of orange with higher water content just for juicing? fresh orange juice for 2 is made just of 5 oranges and one big spoon to aid the squeezing. i tell you, its like scaling practice really. your arms can get sore hehe. i never get to drink them. for the brothers. "where's yours? why never do for yourself?" i said, no need. its for them.

sometimes, i think the effort you put into something doesnt necessarily means its for yourself. for the rest to be appreciative, its really not up to me. i ve learnt to live with this.

nightingale

2009-07-17T16:05:00.004+08:00

i think distance brings out the worst in a relationship. and when i say distance, it doesnt have to be across the seven seas or anything, it can really be as simple as being an hour's drive away. i dont know why, but any form of distance, i do not like. in fact, nobody, and i mean, absolutely nobody like being apart from people whom you love most ie, your mother, dad, friends or really just your other half. its really just frustrating.

but somehow or rather, to tell you the truth, i m really getting more comfortable being this way now. no more seeing each other everyday, just phone calls (many many of them) and web conversations. sometimes, even a good full hour phone conversation is suffice for me. haha, but really i think when you re having arguements or small little fights, the distance adds salt to your wound. or when he's having a blast with his guy friends, and forgets that you re at home alone. in the nights when you cry yourself to sleep, and you just need that voice to comfort you, sometimes i just want to be cold towards everything. just dont feel like talking to anybody.

and then, when everything is getting better and he sweet talks ala 'how to charm a girl in 6 steps', haha, the world is now cotton candy land to you, everything is pink and you re on 7th heaven. i tell you, love is a funny thing. there's no doubt! no wonder small lil kids like their daddies more. guys just have that ability to really bring back smiles on your faces.

holidays have been fine so far. haha. trying to really eat well and exercise a little. the 3lbs dumbbells are my current new best friend! learnt from E!, haha, hold your dumbbells in both hands, stand straight, and do punches with them. and then other miscallenous work outs haha. the reward - flat tummy everyday!

next monday, we are heading to somewhere for a roadtrip. and to be really honest again, i must say i m a little selfish, was initially thinking of just both of us going somewhere with each other. to me, its good quality time for us, esp in the holidays. haha and when he decided to have friends coming along, haih i tell you hahhaa, sometimes just dont know what he's thinking! but anyway, yeah, i ve really come my senses. sharing a trip with my own girlfriends and his own guy friends, especially his, is really a wonderful idea. less of me, more of others. but then of course, he has to compensate with a movie date the day after hee hee.

his 'gonna get-get' and my 'p-p-p poker face, p-p poker face, mum mum mum mah' haha. sometimes, i think its really really effortless to make us happy.

when our love was new,

and each kiss an inspiration.

but that was long ago,

and now my consolation..

..is in the stardust of a song.

stardust - michael buble

some malacca love!

2009-07-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

got both his and my results on friday. really happy and super contented :)
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malacca getaway on wednesday :) su anne was our kind tour guide who really went through everything with us hehe sweaty-ness and all the tiredness. being our food guide. simply awesome! so we went in 2 cars and chin nam really deserves so much more than just a pat on the shoulder because he drove us around all the time without complaining hehe. good boy sayang. haha.

we reached malacca around 10 in the morning and our first stop is to eat! i was really hungry then. we went to Baba Low's and we had some pai tee and popiah. the pai tee is served hot and was really really yummy. had the nyonya laksa - the sambal/belacan made all the difference and it was really yummy! tried a mouthful of mee siam - vermicelli with a sour and spicy flavour to it, with a little lime juice; it was SO incredibly good! it was so so good, i knew it instantly even though i had only a taste of it! mom would really loved it!

#1 pai tee

#2 nyonya laksa - RM3.80

#3 Baba Low's - i think its pretty difficult to find this place. ask the locals!

#4 sabrina and i after our meal!

we went to St Paul's church ruins after that. to be honest, i havent been there in my life at all, although i ve been to malacca several times. it is a very nice place to take pictures hehe. the walls there are already so unique, basically its like a photo studio all readily set up. it was so so pretty there. by the way, the weather was pretty good too. sunny - usually i would complain, but blue skies are perfect in sunny days, and it was also windy!

#5 sabrina and i again hehe. i really like that place!

#6 see what i mean by the whole super nice background for photos!

#7 i sayang this pic a lot a lot a lot. chin nam initally just wanted to take the floors haha i just jumped in and said "take me take me!"

#8 close up on the walls!

#9 some random white wall

#10 sunny sunnny day!

#11 hehe sab's cute lil orange umbrella overturned!

#12 along the staircase

#13 chicken rice balls

# 14 cendol <3> gula melaka is the real deal!

#15 blue skies!

#16 bought a pair of flip flops for RM10! super comfy!

#17 at one of those clothes boutique along jonker street.

#18 satay celup! i love this a lot tooo! would have eaten so much if not for saving tummy spaces for other yummy food!

#19 super crazy yummy portugese assam fish! was gushing about it the entire day at home. it was so so so so so good! dad said in malacca it is a must try! and its totally different compared to the normal ikan bakar k. it is so so so so so nice and went so so well with rice. my favouriteeeee!

#20 oh chien with a lot a lot of those small little oysters. very generous.

stayed in a 3 bedroom apartment with 9 other people. its pretty comfy, not too shabby! i had a very very good sleep that night haha. was seriously exhausted!

#21 had the eye of malaysia for a view at our bedroom. awesome!

#22 prawn mee for breakfast

#23 the best toast i ve ever had! the bread was fluffily crunchy. dont know how else to say.

#24 along the jonker street

#25 with sweet little amanda!

#26 lastly some pork satay! i love this so so much! and i never liked satay, but i ate 8 sticks! gluttony!

really enjoyed the trip so so much. was really experiencing malacca with all the food! ate non-stop! but really loved it! hehe. love going out and about during holidays. cant wait for the next one :)

cloud 9 and apollo

2009-07-10T22:41:00.002+08:00

"relationship with a twist". was just joining in friday's cf and for the first time ever, i completely understood what the speaker was saying. being in a relationship is really not about just falling in love. you build one. and you put in effort to make it work. quarrels, changes, temptations are all part and parcel of it. the key to it is to manage. manage your emotions - one thing that i sometimes feel challenging. to respect your partners. manage your desire, yes and this includes lust. to know your boundaries. to make yourself 'whole'. many times, i ll go "eee, why you like that one..?" he never says that to me. but when i get a lil irritated just because of his small little weird behaviours (like playing with this 2 front teeth with his fingers -.-"), maybe sometimes i really need to step back and ask myself the true meaning of tolerance. to accept imperfections, and overlook them. i m not perfect to him, he is not perfect to me but we take care of each other, love one another and most importantly, grow together. he makes me better. there's no doubt. i may not be that very nice person yet, but i ve learnt to really think about others. and he taught me that. no relationships are a bed of roses. challenges come every now and then. the challenge to stick to our boundaries, to forgive wrongdoings, to be so so patient with one another, to control anger, to be willing to sacrifice for the benefit of others.. there are so much more. its so easy to name it all, but it takes so much out of one to really overcome it. you cannot just live a relationship based on feelings alone. be in love, not in love with the feeling of being loved. hehe. don't know why i babble so much, but really, come to think of it, i think all that i ve been through is indeed a learning process. you dont live in your own bubble and just enjoy being on cloud nine. you learn, transform and grow :)

hehe. sorry a bit like auntie nagging haha. but anyway, malacca pics coming up soon :) :) yes, was away for a couple of days.

picking blackberries

2009-07-05T00:18:00.004+08:00

heard of picnik? hehe. its this cute little photo editting website where you can add doodles on ur pictures to create more interesting pictures haha. everything was so so cute!! even when i was waiting for everything to load, little things like 'buttering sandwiches, laying blankets, planting trees, picking blackberries' etc etc, really like a real picnic! go over there to see what i mean!

please dont stop the rain

2009-07-04T20:21:00.004+08:00

earfood : broken strings - james morrison feat nelly furtado

rarely do the 'this-is-what-i-did-today' kinda blogging. but anyway, this is what i did today. holidays are starting off slightly depressing because i have nothing solid to do. hehe, but anyway, i m still enjoying myself at home. probably on a malacca getaway next week and some other trips after that :) looking forward to that. and also many many things. so today, out of boredom, i went out with the bro to pick up some stuff. i had to get out of the house, or else i ll explode haha. really want to make this holiday a really fun one.

#1 driving around my housing area. today it was freaking hot =(

#2 haha.

#3 this thing, i call it the 'bomb'. its actually some battery or i dont know what for the RC cars the brothers and dad play. and trust me carrying this around in public really makes you feel like a terrorist.

#4 2 hours of badminton! was really sweaty after that. but hehe a good workout.

haha. yups thats it. haih. feel like going on a photography trip.

see the tuna fleets clearing the sea out :)

2009-07-03T19:09:00.008+08:00

hehe. i know all these are eons ago but anyway, just want to make a post out of everything! went to Times Square the day after our competency test. had dinner at Wendy's and was talking there for so so long. miss those times. after going slightly out our minds at FOS laughing and laughing, we got krispy kremes after that and trust me, they are not nice =( too sweet for our taste buds.

#1 i know it makes me look shorter. but still love the background!

#2 dinner after competency. haha like family meal.

#3 hershey's dark chocolate =( dont like at all.

#4 at the SRC hahhaa.

#5 at calorie, post OSCE day 1. it was yummmmmmy. and actually by that day, everyone was slightly relieved because the theory paper was over.

#6 at Dave's deli, OU. had mash, coleslow and a huge plate of cream carbonar with turkey ham and also a plain lassi for dinner after transformers2! he likes bumble bee, hehe i like the mini decepticon megan fox kept in the box and also jetfire! they are so so cute!

#7 i super love this one!! everything is 30% off, including drinks. and tax all included in the price. so it was actually a very decent meal, no need to burn a hole in your pocket. and we had it al fresco!

#8 cant live without the mash!

today, our family went to Tenji, Soho KL for buffet jap lunch! everything was so yummy, the rest went crazy over the fresh osyters there but i dont eat them haha. first helping was all sushi and sashimii! and they serve haagan dazs ice cream there! so delightful! and we drank a lot of coconut water! we had it ourdoors but luckily it was slightly windy! had my 3rd hepB jab after that. i like doctors who are gentle with their needles.

#9 their unagi sushi. somehow their sushi is really just average. but anyway, no complaints haha. jap buffet is good no matter what!

#10 can never go wrong with salmon!

want to enjoy this holiday as much as possible. but he's at B2-10-2 steamboating without me =( anyway haha. a malacca getaway seems possible for next week. but everything's not confirmed. but i really just wanna go anywhere, eat anything, spend time with friends, talk, laugh, love and have really really lots of fun this holiday!

ps : post title from U2's beatiful day.

new divide

2009-07-03T00:48:00.005+08:00

so, this whole week, supposedly my first week of holiday was all spent in bukit jalil trying to be supportive to chin nam who was having the EOS3. a really major exam that i dont think i ll get through if i were him. its too crazy! so yeah hope i really did help him and was really really glad he came back from his last paper happy happy smiley this afternoon. so now, all of us are done with the semester! after the selectives, we will be resuming classes on the 24th of august, hmmm. semester 4 is gonna be tough, no doubt.

transformers was wicked! watched it yesterday. haha i like the battle scenes. the rest not much. but anyway, good to keep the adrenaline pumping in the 2.5 hours there. was really enjoying it so so much and just having to be really carefree and worry-free. sort of missed how i hugged his arms whenever we watch a movie. dinner was yummay. and pool was even better :) haha so yeah, this is how we do the post-exam celebration usually.

anyway holidays. wasnt looking forward to it initially. but anyway, i ll do fine! hehe. the best thing about holidays is sleep sleep and sleep :)

"deh pao"

2009-06-28T00:11:00.005+08:00

if jun says chin nam is stealing me away from her, his exams now are my enemy. my competitor. haha. tonight felt so different, i do not know why. maybe its the holidays. or maybe its just the hormones. i feel like just watching some TV with him, rest my head on his chest and go cuddly cuddly like a manja baby. and tonight, the breeze is so chilly, but at the same time yummy on the skin. haha. i m back on twitter after 2 years! follow me hee hee.

feeling light

2009-06-26T21:12:00.004+08:00

sem3 is over over over! hehe, to me it was over long ago, but today was really official k. when i was in the lab this morning, i wanted to just chill! hehe. anyway, i passed the competency test! we all did. really really happy. it was the first day everyone passed. really realy super glad to have yani as my DSA cos she's really a gem! i complained too much. wide la, no ridge, "die la die la my ridge gone i m gonna fail." etc etc and she was there to literally give me a slap on the shoulder and say "look! your ridge is like a mountain there!" to a certain extent, i can say i really did enjoy the 2hours there. haha, although with lots of pressure, but somehow both of us laughed so much!

jun came over for dinner just now!! at home! here in sierramas! so random!! but so nice to have her here. haha. <3

anyway, i think sem3 ended really really well. i think i have made more new friends and got to know them so much better these few months. really. i was telling chin nam that i felt so different compared to last year because this time i sort of have a balance, between him and my other girl friends. i admit being so so sticky to him initially, i told him everything, did almost everything with him and i sometimes did sort of abandoned my friends. these few months, i realised i still have my own circle of friends. and they are always always there for me. yesterday proved to me that i can really still hang out with my crazy girl friends and not lose myself. i m just so so so thankful!

i like how things are now. chin nam and his own things, me with mine. but we still belong to each other. it really strikes of as a balance in our own personal lives. i do think we are slowly growing in a more mature direction. sometimes i look back and i surprised myself how we have erm blossomed? hahaha. but i really do like the ways things are now.

a week ago, i told him i have this certain calmness in my head for quite awhile already. i dont know what that is, but i tell you, even during competency, although i was nervous, i still felt that inner peace inside. omg i tell you that is one of the nicest feeling ever. it was really surprising. hehe, the next few days i kept telling him about this "calmness" i have. like everything is really gonna be okay, no matter what. omg, am i getting old or what?

right now, i have no definite plans for the holidays. we are starting our fourth semester at the end of august. i would really love to go absolutely anywhere while i can, but really i still do want to stay at home and be with myself for awhile. the semester was a different kind of hectic, and this is really a good time so slow down now.

oh and i have been listening to bohemian rhapsody every single day. me likes! he thinks its weird. hahaa.

sapphire and faded jeans

2009-06-21T14:25:00.001+08:00

#1 sitiawan, last week.

#2 i wanna be able to take great photos like dad!

#3 miss pigging out with this fella.
omg EOS, be gone!
now i have to wait till he's free to watch transformers togetha-getha :(

#4 one of the pics i developed this week.
holiday plan - develop all my pics and start a photo album!

i have july's issue of CLEO but i havent read it yet. i wanna be lazy.
competency test, you worry me!
70 minute phone conversation, i so love.
i m swirling in cotton candy clouds - corinne bailey ray
"summer came like cinnamon - so sweet."

Nothing can hold us back from all that this life has put in our path

crazy - stars go dim

2009-06-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

"you are the most important person in my life right now."

sunshine and summertime

2009-06-20T00:02:00.005+08:00

#1 guy has been studying a lot this whole week, sometimes cant help to feel slightly abandoned haha. but anyway, gave a thought on what sabby said to me this morning. i think chin nam and i have really got to another level of understanding. haha. i think if you compare us to this month last year, we are now relatively less but still so reasonably lovestruck. i was really clingy then.

these past month has been a busy one for him. EOS3 is no joke. but really thankful because all is well so far hehe. i think his mom and i agree that we really do not need to worry too much about him. he knows what to do. sometimes when he drops a little in spirit, just a little push and some encouragement and he will be back on his feet. but anyway, really want the exam period to be over for him so that he gets to loosen up a bit hehe. pool, movie, yummy food after exams yeah?

but anyway, i disgress. nowadays, i spent relatively less time with him although he comes to school everyday and it really did got the better of me these few days. haha. i suddenly became this attention seeker who non-stop seeks a little affection from him, and when i lose to this thing called the 'exam pressure', oh mm gee, my moods get haywired hahhaa. but really, i think i m growing out of it. i m super glad. absence DO make the heart grow fonder. now i treasure every single minute, every phone call, sometimes when we take the lift up to the 3rd floor in school, a quick hug makes everything better.

just a few hours ago, i called to check on him and he was in his shower! he told me he brought his phone in just in case i was gonna call :) :) :)

hehe. anyway, finished literature selectives. learnt a lot. made new friends hehe. they are very sweet. enjoyed thoroughly, the first week was.. meh. but after that, everything went uphill. so enjoyable that i actually so enthusiastically finished 2 reflections in a day. it was very nice sharing opinions with friends. and sometimes after learning a thing or two, i ll go back and let chin nam know. really benefits a lot.

being at home really feels so good. love being at home. love love love. and not to mention, the best cook in the world never fails to fill our tummy with yummy goodies. <3 have some pictures to post up hehe. but that can wait. :)

darby = darling baby

(sweetheart)

that warm fuzzy feeling

2009-06-15T22:55:00.003+08:00

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring.

Oscar Wilde

today has been a really good day <3

sat by the river and it made me complete

2009-06-14T19:14:00.005+08:00

somewhere only we know - keane

#1 bag from jalan bukit bintang :)

was interviewing one eccentric-looking guy in his shop when i saw this.

#2 hometown for the weekend. mee suah in red rice wine.

my ultimate favourite.

this and 'kompiang' make sitiwan 'sitiawan'.

#3 old picture. feel like posting up.

bohemian rhapsody - first heard that song by mig ayesa in INXS. my brothers and i used to LOVE mig ayesa. he introduced me to 'live and let die' by paul mccartney which remains as one of favourite songs to date. and listen to *this*! i remember really just falling in love with his voice. he made rockstar INXS better than american idol for us that year.

sudden craving for ice cream by the beach. yums. :)

moon appears to shine and light the sky,
with the help of some fireflies.
just wanna be with you night and day,

baby, i love your way - peter frampton

highlight of the day

2009-06-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

somebody got a really good grade today. made me so so proud! happy for you! sayang <3!

street walks

2009-06-11T16:51:00.003+08:00

today, yani, sabree and i went to the Times Square for a street interview. on priorities in life, love and life in general. the diversity of people and their point of views, really, their opinions differ so so much. i usually do not care much about views on life, the purpose and its meaning. the more i think about it, the more i think life as complicating. but really, how do you make life meaningful? and how do you define happiness?

the way i see it, and how i have learnt after a day of questioning, i think the meaning of life is large given by love and friendship. a group of wonderful friends told us today, "we enjoy our lives today because of our friends." and when i asked a husband, what do you think makes you enjoy your life today, he pointed to his wife and his son, "my family. i enjoy sharing my life with my family."

i just think all of us are here today because no one is meant to be lonely. and that within us, we have this little thing called love that are not meant to be kept for ourselves, but to share it with the people that come into all walks of our lives.

i don't know whether the universe, with its countless galaxies, stars, and planets, has a deeper meaning, bat at the very least it is clear that we humans who live on this Earth face the task of making a happy life for ourselves.

Voices of the heart - Dalai Lama

There is one way of happiness in life; to love and to be loved.

Letter to Lina Calamatta - George Sand

fireplace

2009-06-07T16:25:00.007+08:00

finished up on the reflection for our selectives a few days ago. well. actually, only yesterday. hee hee. was spending a few days trying to come up with an issue to ponder on. and i was clueless. literature in medicine. to seek deeper within the words. not easy at all! sent the essay for marking yesterday. it was on growing up and priorities. shakespeare. ok. i shall not say more.

so other than going for literature discussions, i have well, pretty much nothing important to do. competency is within the next few coming weeks. slightly anxious. but argh. shall not think too much. but i definitely do not like to be idle. i like to have a purpose.

#1 broke a glass (again!) and burnt my fingers a little with boiling water.

#2 chin nam made me go to the doctor after seeing me in pain because apparently "you re gonna be a dentist. what if something happens to your hands!?" was shooting him a look because i do not like going to the doctors! at all.

#3 like sunshine. brightens up my day.

#4 our evening

#5 *rubs tummy* for special occasions, both of us to a lil research for some reasonably priced yummy food! sort of like a tradition now.

#6 duno why. just feel like posting this up.

#7 potluck

Her morning elegance – Orie Lavie

milestone

2009-06-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

Despite the title, and calling ourselves “us” for a year now, I was left wondering after a night of arguments (in a very very long time, I assure you. We’ve been getting better in compromising.), that is there any reason to celebrate what the people call the anniversary? I for one do not think I understand him completely. What does the anniversary mean anyway? Is it just a measure of time?

After a book or two, a conversation and the little piece of Shakespeare the literature class studied on Tuesday, I think the purpose of us having to look forward for a little dinner on the day, one that everyone should be celebrating for, is to celebrate the journey. And definitely, not the length of time.

A little friend once told me “Grow together.”

Stuck in my head forever since.

I m looking forward to each and every surprise a new day brings. Like how I didn’t know one of his sole purposes in life is to find the best wan tan mee in the world! And the reason he like Teh Ais so much. Or why he didn’t like porridge [you ll be amused as to why!] or when I find it funny when our chopsticks click if I sat left next to him [he is a left-hander]. Or how he googles his medications just in case the doctor have him the wrong one. Aiyoyo! And also whenever we discovered our very own “wifi” moments! Even when we’re having a telephone conversation!

“baby, guess what I just did!”
“you just farted?”
“HOW DID YOU KNOW THAAAAAAT!”

And so, to the guy who taught me that calling a guy ‘cute’ is definitely not flattering to a man’s ego [I’ve never described a man as ‘cute’ ever since!], and whose favourite disease used to be Burkitt’s Lymphoma! And the little fella who would listen to my every woe. Shares all my happiest moment. Pieces and glues me back together when I fall apart. Fills me in with politics. Enlightens me on the difference between the Republican and the Democratic Party. The guy who allows me to be just as I am. Tells me its okay to eat like a man (haha!). Layans all my nonsense. Compromises when I don’t listen. Cares for me, more than I deserve. A life coach when I need one. The one who shows me love is not self-seeking. And the guy I took a while to say ‘I love you’ to - happy 1st year! And cheers for the every single day we’ve been through!

Wisdom is found in the least expected places.
Always keep your eyes open.
Don’t block your own sunshine.
Be filled with wonder.

Jeremy Fink and the Meaning of Life by Wendy Mass